January 30, 2012

I can’t do this anymore, I can’t. It’s done, I’ll never speak to you again because I can’t keep letting you come back to do the same thing to me every time. I can’t bear to see you keep walking out and in again. I can’t keep riding a roller coaster that has no ending. I want to believe so hard that it would work, that we’d be the ones that make it in the end, that no matter how many hardships or fights we have, we’ll still be together—but I can’t. I can’t keep holding on to someone that just keeps letting me go. I can’t keep waiting on someone who does nothing but run away. I can’t keep trusting someone who proves me wrong all the time. So I’m done. I don’t know what’s going through your mind, but I just don’t want to care anymore. This is the last time I’m going to care because it’s done. You won, I’m letting go. Don’t come knocking on my door ever again because I won’t let you in anymore.